Well, this is my last post on this blog, I have a new one now. I’m sure none of you will miss me. Bye! :)

I think I’ve decided on what I’m going to do. Same thing I wanted to do for the past 2 weeks. Stop talking to absolutely everyone and focusing on school work. Already asked my sister if it’s possible to get rid of all my minutes and texts to stop tempting me to text people and she said yes. I guess being depressed from no social interaction is better than being depressed from wanting something so much which you can’t have anyways. Disabling Facebook and Twitter will probably also be a good idea, so there’s no distraction. And I think I’m going to make a new tumblr account. When I first started tumblr, I thought it would’ve been cool to have someone I know on here, but never have I been so wrong. Now, there’s way too many people I know that follow me on here. So, yeah…

lifertillthebitterend:

dzoantheexplorer:

“This guy reading the newspaper on the subway is Keanu Reeves.He is from a problematic family. His father was arrested when he was 12 for drug dealing and his mother was a stripper. His family moved to Canada and there he had several step dads.He watched his girlfriend die. They were about to get married, and she died in a car accident. And also before that she had lost her baby. Since then Keanu avoids serious relationships and having kids.He’s one of the only Hollywood stars without a Mansion. He said: ‘I live in a flat, I have everything that I need at anytime, why choose an empty house?’One of his best friends died by overdose, he was River Phoenix (Joaquin Phoenix’s brother). Almost in the same year Keanu’s father was arrested again. His younger sister had leukemia. Today she is cured, and he donated 70% of his gains from the movie Matrix to Hospitals that treat leukemia.On one of his birthdays, he got to a little candy shop and bought him a cake, and started eating alone. If a fan walked by he would talk to them and offer some of the cake.He doesn’t have bodyguards, and he doesn’t wear fancy clothes.When they asked him about ‘Sad Keanu’, he replied: ‘You need to be happy to live, I don’t.’”

Keanu Reeves is awesome.

This is what I’m going to be like if I ever get famous/win the lottery.

lifertillthebitterend:

dzoantheexplorer:

“This guy reading the newspaper on the subway is Keanu Reeves.

He is from a problematic family. His father was arrested when he was 12 for drug dealing and his mother was a stripper. His family moved to Canada and there he had several step dads.

He watched his girlfriend die. They were about to get married, and she died in a car accident. And also before that she had lost her baby. Since then Keanu avoids serious relationships and having kids.

He’s one of the only Hollywood stars without a Mansion. He said: ‘I live in a flat, I have everything that I need at anytime, why choose an empty house?’

One of his best friends died by overdose, he was River Phoenix (Joaquin Phoenix’s brother). Almost in the same year Keanu’s father was arrested again. 

His younger sister had leukemia. Today she is cured, and he donated 70% of his gains from the movie Matrix to Hospitals that treat leukemia.

On one of his birthdays, he got to a little candy shop and bought him a cake, and started eating alone. If a fan walked by he would talk to them and offer some of the cake.

He doesn’t have bodyguards, and he doesn’t wear fancy clothes.

When they asked him about ‘Sad Keanu’, he replied: ‘You need to be happy to live, I don’t.’”

Keanu Reeves is awesome.

This is what I’m going to be like if I ever get famous/win the lottery.

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srnokemeth:

every skrillex song at once

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the bass dropped at the same time help

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How is this fair? How is anything fair? I get two of my best friends together and I’m the bad guy. She, the most amazing person I’ve ever met, texts me one night that she’s crying her eyes out because he was smoking weed (she hates drugs and anything to do with them). So, I go over to his house showing him the text (he had no idea) and tell him everything… How I’ve never liked anyone so much and that when she said that she liked him, I stepped out of the way so them two could be together. I tell him what she likes, how she likes to be treated, what kind of conversations she likes, I tell him FUCKING EVERYTHING ABOUT HER. If I didn’t, they wouldn’t be together anymore, because she’d get bored. Yesterday, she comes to me saying that she’s mad at him, because he’s not taking this relationship seriously. I give her tons of advice, I keep comforting her and now they’re happy together again. AND WHAT THE FUCK DO I GET? He’s fucking mad at me, because of the way I said something when I was giving him all the advice that day. He won’t fucking talk to me. Thanks, pal. I hope you fucking read this and feel awful, because if I didn’t encourage her to start talking to you in the first place, you’d be nowhere. If I’m going to fail my exams because of all the stress, sweat and tears you caused me, I’m gonna blame it on you, you ungrateful bastard.

I want something to myself for once. I want someone. I keep doing everything for everyone and I never get anything, just more and more people deciding that I’m a dick. Even a simple ‘Thanks, man, I owe you.’ would be enough. I GET NOTHING. Not only I don’t get anything, I keep getting that nothingness taken away from me. I can’t do anything else apart from writing these messages whilst crying and praying to God. Yes, I’m actually praying, and I’m an atheist. I don’t even know anymore. I don’t know how much I can put up with. 

I just had a nosebleed. And I’m about to break down again. This is just great.

Ha! All the odd one. :)

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Seriously? I never thought I’d get annoyed from getting asked so many questions. For future reference, anonymously message me instead of submitting these. It’s easier.

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

Nah.

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?

Yesterday.

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

Don’t think so. I doubt there is anyone who cares what I think/feel right now.

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?

My pajamas.

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

Sweats, I guess?

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?

Antisocial. Definitely.

13. What about ‘R’?

Yup.

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?

Couldn’t care less.

17. When was the last time you cried?

Two or three days ago? I cry a lot for a grown up man.

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?

Yup, I’d go for blue.

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.

There’s nothing fun to do and nowhere to go.

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?

Nope. I wish.

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?

Nope.

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

Jade.

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?

Primark, I think?

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?

Nope. I don’t drink.

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?

Ewww… No.

35. Did you have a dream last night?

I did. It was FUCKED UP.

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

Please, God, no.

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

Hardly doubt it (again).

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?

Really? Another one? No.

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

Nope.

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?

Isn’t that what Facebook’s for?

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

Quite a lot.

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

It’s exactly the same.

51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?

Nope.

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

Yup.

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?

Ha… Ha.. No.

57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?

Yup.

59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?

Nope.

61. How’s your heart?

You know… red and bloody.

63. Have you ever cried over a guy?

Nope.

65. Are your toenails painted pink?

Would it be weird if I said yes?

67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?

I don’t know, ask a girl.

69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?

Jade.

71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?

Yes?

73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

I do, but I like to keep everything to myself.

75. Did you wake up cranky?

I always do, because of those DAMN PEOPLE UPSTAIRS!

77. Are relationships ever worth it?

I guess?

79. Currently wanting to see anyone?

Not really…

81. Last person you cried in front of?

My mum or my sister?

83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?

Nah.

85. Are you over your past?

I’m the type of person who does one thing wrong and then has that thing being played over and over in their head. So, no.

87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?

Yes, but as I said, I don’t like doing that.

89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?

Of course, it’s fucking freezing!

91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?

It’d be a miracle if I was.

93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?

Nope. Am I missing out?

95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?

I can’t remember where I even was in March.

97. Who do you have texts from?

Jade?

99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

Yup.

101. Ever kissed under fireworks?

Nope. 

I’M DONE FOR TODAY. 

All the even ones.Go!

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2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?

Most likely.

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?

I do that all the time. That’s probably why no one ever wants to sit next to me on a bus :/

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?

Yup. Question doesn’t specify to name the song, so I’m not going to :)

8. How often do you listen to music?

Every day.

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2013?

Kinda too late for this one. But, nah… My life’s always going to be boring.

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?

Nope.

14. Can you drive a stick shift?

Depends what you mean by a stick shift ;) Because I have no idea :L

16. Are you going out of town soon?

Yup.

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?

Ughakjsdhuiyeskajnsdfaldskf.

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?

Yup, there is.

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?

This is going to sound weird, but my forehead is probably the most kissed place on my body and no… I hate it :L

24. What are you sitting on right now?

A dildo. My bed

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

Same question as in the last one, and the same answer. “That is generally the case.”

28. Do you get a lot of colds?

Nope, I’m surprisingly healthy :)

30. Does anyone hate you?

Maybe not hate, but dislike a lot and there’s several people. 

32. Do you like watching scary movies?

YES.

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

Probably 2012. Too many fuck ups. Way too many fuck ups.

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

Probably sometime in September/October as a joke or something.

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

Hardly doubt it.

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?

Nope. When do I ever have any good days?

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?

Same answer as to number 38.

44. What’s the best part about school?

Nothing? It’s the only source of free education, so I guess that’s a plus.

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?

Who does that anymore? We’ve got phones now.

48. Were you single over the last summer?

I’ve been single for like… 2 years and 9 months.

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?

Revising for my exams.

52. Are you nice to everyone?

Nope. I’m generally horrible to people I know, but really nice to strangers. Don’t know why.

54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

Cheating is stupid.

56. Do you think you like someone?

Meh.

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?

Girls. Conversations are more interesting.

60. Do you hate anyone?

Couple of people, yes.

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?

Like… a million things?

64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?

THAT SPIDER WHO’S BEEN SITTING IN THE CORNER OF MY ROOM FOR WEEKS NOW. No, srsly, Idk. I don’t care :)

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?

How can a kiss be a mistake? Kissing is fun!

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?

Nope.

70. How do you look right now?

Like a homeless guy. I need to shave D:

72. Can you commit to one person?

I guess so? That’s what I usually do.

74. Have you ever felt replaced?

I always feel replaced.

76. Are you a jealous person?

Hmmm… I think so, yeah. Others don’t really see it, but stuff that goes on in my head is fucked up.

78. Anyone you’re giving up on?

I don’t have anyone to give up on?

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?

Revise -_-

82. Is there someone you will never forget?

I never forget people.

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?

Meh. 

86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?

Yup.

88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? 

Most likely, yes.

90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

Yup.

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?

I know two… I think…

94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?

Ugh… No.

96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?

I guess so? Yes.

98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

Oh ho ho… Same thing I’m doing right now? Let them have the other person.

100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?

My phone?

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

Yup. Only one person, in fact.

DAMMMN, that was loooongggg D: